saying yes twice to a man, the best birthday ever

I know I said in my first post that I would be back the next day to update....well we see how well that turned out.  :) I get asked all of the time how the proposal happened, how the planning is going, and what my dress looks like. I love answering these questions because I love being able to talk about getting married. Let me set the scene a little better for people out there who don't know me very well. I am number 1 girly girl and I have been thinking about my wedding ever since I was a little girl. Watching wedding shows with my mom is definitely a favorite past time and I so far have loved every single second of planning this wedding (well for the most part).

Robert and I have known each other for going on 5 years now, and in that time we have been together for almost 3 years of it. We talked about getting married and starting a life for a long time, and we never really had a time line other than we wanted it to happen soon. I was asked by this amazing man to be his wife on two separate occasions. The first time started the planning process but the second time was the most memorable, amazing, and exciting one....the story I will tell for the rest of my life. The first time was New Years Ever while we were out to eat at a favorite restaurant of ours. We talked most of the meal about it, not really getting anywhere, then when we were close to being done he started talking about how much he wanted to be married to me. He gave me the yes/no disk from the table (we were at Texas de Brazil) and told me that red would mean we would continue on the path we had been on or that green would mean we would start planning a life together and I would be his wife which is what he wanted so bad (but hello I definitely wanted that too)......obviously I picked green......that is what set the stage to start the planning process. Even though I was extremely excited about everything, Robert knew how much I had always wanted that true proposal that every girl dreams about. What I did not know was that he was planning on giving me just that. On the 17th of February I boarded a plane to visit him in Florida for a few days. On that Saturday which was my birthday, he had planned this amazing day visiting the historic city of St. Augustine. We spent the day walking around, seeing the beautiful scenery, the history, the crazy stuff inside ripley's, and enjoying the perfect weather. When it was night we left the town and started driving to Neptune Beach. On the way getting to see all of the amazing beach houses that dotted the coastline. When we got to Neptune Beach (the place he had planned that we eat dinner) he suggested a walk on the beach before we ate. I took off my shoes and we started to walk, hand in hand, down the beach. He stopped a little of the way down to just talk and enjoy the experience. He put his arm around me and I could feel his heart was pounding so hard, I thought something was wrong!! We were looking at the moon and the stars and I commented on how much I wish there was a shooting star so I could make a wish; he suggested I make a wish anyway. I looked up and said the saying "star light star bright, first star I see tonight, I wish I may, I wish I might, have the wish I wish tonight" and I shut my eyes and made my wish. After I was done Robert asked what I had wished for and I refused to tell him, citing that if I told him that my wish would not come true. When he said he made a wish too, my curiosity got the best of me and I asked what he had wished for. Then he started to move in front of me, he grabbed my hand and got down on one knee. Then he told me his wish was that I would spend the rest of my life with him and that I would say yes if he asked me to marry him again. Then he asked if I would spend my life with him, he pulled out the most beautiful emerald cut solitaire, and place it on my ring finger. The whole time I am standing there in shock, and all I can stand to get out is "uuhh yeess" (so eloquent) He stands up and I wrap my arms around him all the while still in complete shock, no tears, no words....then about 5 minutes later it was like it all came rushing up and I came out of the shock and started crying. All I could say is "It really is happening, oh my gosh it really is happening, this is real, this is so amazing, I love you so much, it's really happening" again my eloquent speech has come out. Then I admitted to him that my wish from earlier was that I would be able to experience exactly what had just happened. We were both shaking and happy, and by the end of that evening my cheeks were hurting so bad from smiling so much. By far and away it was the most amazing birthday I have ever had in my entire life, there are seriously no words to tell you what it feels like when the man you love most in this entire world places a ring on your finger and asks you to spend the rest of your life being his wife.

This whole experience has taught me a lot about many differet things and a lot about myself. First off I have learned that the most amazing things in life happen to you when you least expect it. Secondly, I learned that no matter how awesome of a speaker you think you are, when you are put in that situation, you lose all memory that you have speech capabilities of someone over the age of 5. Also I realized that night that Robert, even though he is one of the strongest men I know, gets extremely nervous about stuff too. I don't think I have ever felt someone's heart beating that hard before. Lastly, writing this blog has made me realize (well not really because I have always known) that I cannot talk or tell a story in a succint way; I seriously think it is an issue I have, but atleast by the end you are going to know every single detail possible. I cannot wait to continue to share these happy moments, the crazy moments, and the moments that make you want to go a little insane on here....until next time : )